Summer is HERE!!!

For your entertainment pleasure….I present a list blog.

1.  Summer is here, thank GOD!
I have been so ready for the lack of school for so long, and finally here i am.  No more classes, no more assignments, no more….until August.  Do you know how happy I am about this?  I’m thrilled.  I haven’t been this happy in so long to not have to go to school.  I’m gonna miss it.  I know that.  I always do.  It’s the people not the work.  This time I’m loosing so many good people in my life, they are graduating and leaving.  I still have many people who I will have.  Which I’m thankful for.  Extremely thankful.  But there are a few people who are moving on with their life and I will be very sad to see go.  But back to the point, school is on break.  Meaning I finally have time to read books, clean, re-arrange, and the other things that I can’t do during school time.  Because I am so busy.

2. Baby is 16 days away
Ever since I found out I was going to have another baby, I’ve been looking forward to his arrival.  If you have missed this memo, I’m having a baby, he will be here May 28th.  Unless he comes before hand.  With Haylie there were complications and we ended up having to have an emergency c section…..Not something I wanted to do, nor planned on but alas that is how she was born.  When the doctor and I talked about baby #2′s arrival we talked about attempting to do a natural birth, but since there are more risks with that and the fact that the same factors are in play (ie my body) I was encouraged to do a c section.  Honestly it works out better since the family is traveling down to be here for baby’s birth.  It helps to make a plan.  I’m so excited for him to be here.  I really can’t wait to hold him in my arms and count all his little toes.  I am so excited for him.
Haylie is too, though I don’t think she understand just how different things will be.   I know she has some idea because of the way she has been so clingy, but it is going to be so different.

3.  Rehired
I was rehired for both the Talisman and the Herald.  I’m very happy that I will be able to work at both places for my final semester at school.  I’m hoping to really expand and build all my skills this last semester to really help me get a job after I graduate.  Gosh that is such a scary thought, finally getting hired somewhere that would classify as a big girl job.

4. List
I have been making list for a long time now.  To-do list which I like to call problem list.  Which today has been no different, I created a summer pre-baby to-do list.   It isn’t really all that long, which surprises me,  but it is very detailed.  I have a ton of things to do before this little one gets here. So that I can be semi-lazy once he arrives.  I really want the house to be in tip-top shape so while I recover I don’t have too much to worry about with it.

5. This Blog is now old.
I’ve been working on this sporadically as I sit at my computer. So where I started this like three days ago, things are already changing.  IE  Baby is now 13 days away….Oy now I’m just really awful….the baby is now five days away…..Making today the twenty-third of may…..I have fail boated on getting this blog posted properly.

6.  Last night
I did a lasagna night.   Which means I made lasagna, had rabbit food makings and then made dessert–a marble swirl cheesecake–and invited a few people over.   The night was a huge success.  I had so much fun.    After dinner we played Halo, and I laughed so hard.  It was just fun.  I haven’t had fun like that in forever.  To just laugh at the craziness of boys playing video games, and girls who have never really played before.  I’m so Laura had the best reaction.  She would physically jump or hid behind her arms.  It was just funny.  I love having fun like that.

7. Crazy LADY
Yes, I am a crazy lady, I’ve been cleaning like one anyway.  I know why.  I totally get it.  But it’s still really funny to step back and see how crazy I’m being.  Like a few nights ago I took 45 mins to clean doors.  WHY?  Because that is sorta insane  it’s not like they were filthy or anything–though, they look really good now– it’s just nesting.  I totally get it.   My house has never looked better either.  Well not all the rooms at the same time. The bathrooms, bedrooms, living room, kitchen…..ALL SHINY!  Even after last night, where you’d expect, and under normal conditions, the dishes would still be in the sink, I mean it is only 9:22 am (as of now)  there would be the trash still where everyone left it.  But nope, my crazy butt has already loaded and am running the dish washer so that I can get the dishes put away.  I’ve already scrubbed down all the counter tops and swept up all the crumbs. Cleaned the living room from any left over items.  Just trying really hard to keep it all clean.   It’s like pre-period cleaning to a whole new degree.

8. Reading
I haven’t started my summer reading yet.  I know it is because I’ve been to crazy cleaning.  But I only have summer for pleasure reading and I just haven’t started yet.  Which is really sad and unfortunate because I have about fifty books on my list that I want to finish before I go back to school.  It is a good reading list too.  Everything from Molly McCaffrey to TJ Lutgring to JD Salinger to Jane Austin.  It promises to be a great reading time.  It is just a matter of starting it I suppose.

9. Nap
I need a nap.  I went to bed around midnight and was up at 645ish this morning.  Having fun does come at a price.  Lack of sleep.  Something that I shouldn’t deprive myself of.  Because I start to go crazier than my normal level of maciena crazy.  Then I do stupid things like miss spell my own name and not make any lick of sense in my blog.  But then again I never have claimed to make sense of any kind when it comes to the blog since I use this as a diary of sorts.  Though I shouldn’t use it as that because while I know only a handful of people even look at it.  It still isn’t good to put intimate feelings in the internet world.  It really does come back to bite you in the butt.

10. Last point.
The end.
That is all.
Hope everyone is having a good summer thus far.
And now for reals.
THAT IS ALL.

bad day

i know i only post when i am venting. or that is how it seems anyway.  at least to me.

but today is one of those days that i really regret getting a dog.  i am stressed out completely right now because of my life.  and Lucy is just every where and chewing on everything still.  and it feels like every five seconds Haylie screams at the top of her lungs at lucy.  i’m the care giver.  i have to be here because phil is at work.  and it’s just really hard to be the care giver and the student.

it’s just freaking hard right now.  but only like 4 weeks left. i can do it.  i’m just annoyed.

 

also on a side note, i wish i used my time wiser.

 

who knew

that life was so hard.

Spring Break Blues

I love spring break.  It’s better than fall break, winter break, and almost better than summer break.  Not quite better than summer, but a close second.

Spring Break there is no obligations.  Only trips and free time.  You don’t have to care about anything. That is why spring break is so amazing.  Plus it is a full week, not like fall break.  That is my expectation of Spring Break.

However.  That is sadly not the case.  This spring break I have 3, yes 3 huge projects.  Like many days of work.  My spring break is being spent calculating grave goods.  writing a portfolio and figuring out what disturbing content is. Along with re-doing my “road map” outline for the dumb awful class.  Spring break is nothing but a working week without class.  I’d like to protest this notion but what good would it do me.

That along with still getting up at 6:30 every single day is making this spring break just awful.

Therefore my title is relevant.  I’ve got some spring break blues.

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I know I do not upkeep this  blog as often as I should, or truthfully as often as I would like.  I think about blogging almost daily.  It is always just a question of time and energy.

I have so much going on that I think should be documented in some fashion but it’s just hard to set the time aside.

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Since I’m not sure if I blogged on this subject: We got a dog.  She is a sweet Dalmatian puppy.  Her name is Lucy.  But I swear she has feline DNA.   She tries to sit in window sills.  Also acts very cattish when it comes to sleeping and various other things.  It’s kind of adorable.  Phil does like cats so he completely enamored by the sweet pup. He’ll get down in the floor and play with her, for at least an hour or two nightly.  Haylie is in love too, except that she is also completely jealous of her.  It’s a fine line between love and hate with Haylie.  She wants to take care and play with the puppy, but the puppy has to keep her paws in line, because if she gets too much of the parental attention Haylie gets upset.

We’ve had her for about two months now, (I think? I’m really not sure) and we are all still trying to adjust to each other.

With the warm weather and the shedding of the fur, my allergies aren’t a fan of the puppy, but I heart her, so I’m trying to deal.  So that is the puppy update.

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Phil and I have been slowly re-working our house.  Getting better/newer furniture.  We have one more piece and our living room will be done.  We are trying so hard to de-clutter and make our living space as nice as possible.

It has been working well. It’s just a matter of getting time to really work on it, and not being exhausted.  I fear though that by time we have it all done, it will be time to pack and move again.  Which honestly I’m looking forward to. I love school, and Bowling Green.  But I’m tired of being away. We were away in NC, and now away in BG.  Both were valid reasoning but I’m just ready to own a house, and be settled in for a long time.  Get into a routine that does not include me going to school, but a job.  A real job.  A big girl job.  Writing for a paper, doing research for anthropology.  Whatever.  I just am done sitting here prepping for it all.  I want to have a degree.  I want to move on.  Classical done with school thoughts.  I just have to hold on until December.  I’ll be a graduate in December.  Just have to maintain the present course for a bit longer.  Which isn’t a problem.  I’m just ready for that change.

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So now on to the topic of how awful it was sitting here in BG knowing that my family could have used me.  The tornadoes that hit on Friday hit my hometown of Piner.  It destroyed so much. It didn’t hit my parent, grandma’s or aunt house.  But it take out a shed, and garage.  Along with busting out all the windows in Rylynn’s old house.  I just am thankful that my family is all safe and sound. But my heart breaks in ways I can’t think of describing for those who lost everything material.  So many people there I’ve known for so long are just trying to pick up the pieces.  Like Mrs. Whaley’s house, it’s gone basically.  She taught me in school.  (not my direct teacher, but worked with Mrs. Wolfe)  I hear Mrs. Wolfe’s son’s house was badly damaged.  A girl I went to school with though we weren’t close but my mom worked intensely with her sister in elementary school, they lost all.  Or that is my assumption based on pictures I’ve seen.

The news coverage and the pictures I’ve seen has just hurt so much because that is where I’m from, my life started there.  It doesn’t help that Haylie has seen the pics and was so worried about our family.  Asking over and over again about certain people’s houses. My confirmation wasn’t good enough, Daddy had to confirm for her all was well as far as our family was concerned. I’m just praying for all the people effective.  It’s all I can do, Mom won’t let me come home.  She told me no.  And I’m being a good daughter and listening. It doesn’t happen often so.  I’m just really sad for my hometown right now.

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Well this has been a mighty big blog.  So I’ll end it here.  I’m sure I could continue rambling for a bit more. But I gonna attempt to go back to the schoolwork.  Hope you all are having a great day.

Leave a comment if you have something productive to say, not encouraging.  Productive.

 

Thanks

that is all

~~maciena~~

complications

the first week of school is done.  Thank the LORD! That first week back is always stressful.  As any good student would, I’ve been trying to find a rhythm of balancing school, homework, and life.

 

well this blog was obviously started a while back and abandoned.

 

oops.

 

Well it is not the Wednesday before spring break.  Which I’m happy for, but I also wish I had more time before the break, because I have so much to do.

class sucks,

life is rushed.

i just need some time to breathe.

my birthday

came and went.

and now i’m old.

 

 

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I’m also happy to report that even though my grandma who always call did not this year, that I had a great birthday

right or wrong

I’m posting a potential email that I’ll be sending to anyone that may be able to help with the awful class that is killing me slowly.  No joke.

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To whom it may concern:

 

I’m currently a student enrolled in Advanced Reporting, Jour 426 taught by visiting professor, Mercedes De Uriarte.  A class I’m required to take and pass with a minimum of a c grade. In the course catalog it is described as this: “Designed to produce for publication in-depth news reporting, including reporting on government affairs, using interviewing, observation and public records research skills coupled with computer assisted reporting. Capstone course for news/editorial curriculum.”

However, so far in the class I have learned nothing of the sort.  Instead we have intensely discussed white privilege, having our class being demeaned for being a class that isn’t racially mixed.  Talking intensity about white people are the villains who hold back all minorities.  While this may be the truth, it has produced a hostel learning environment.

The professor has not only made it a place where learning cannot prevail.   She has also used the class room to generally discuss how the university where she previously worked, University of Texas, is superior to WKU.  Not only in an academic way, but in the parking situation and having a bookstore that is able to order the right books.  She has also made her personal thoughts on how the university treats its visiting professors very clear, stating that they don’t take care of the professor.  Talking about how they did not provide any information on how to live or function within WKU’s campus.

The ironic thing to me about that is that she has on more than one occasion patronized  my class for not being resourceful enough to figure something out on own.  One example of this was the confusion of what books were required for the class.  The bookstore has a list of books associated with the class that are not the correct books needed for it.  The correct list is under Jour 481. A class that isn’t even taught by her, though whomever made that error as yet to be seen.

The professor has also added to the hostile environment by encouraging us to ask questions when we have one, then ridiculing us for doing so.  The second week of class, students asked about the book situation, we were told to consult our syllabus, but that does not include a required book list.   Other times we have asked about the only assignment included in the syllabus she has never fully answered what the assignment is or explained it in a manner any of us has been able to understand.   This is the end of week four and I have little to no clue how to pass her class.

The professor will also make a reference to something and then inform us of our ignorance since “we should have learned that as freshman.”  Without expanding on the reference or going into how it affects what we are discussing.  She constantly informs us of our uneducated state, making me feel like I’ve waste the last few years of my life that I’ve worked on my degree.

The most outrageous thing that my professor has done, is to date been late on three occasions.  The worst offense was on February 14^th when she was 40 minutes late to class.  Had a student walked into any class that late, there is no doubt that they would have been chastised and asked to leave.  I personally find this unprofessional and disrespectful.  I am a mother of a five-year old daughter, have a husband and live over twenty minutes off campus; yet, I am still able to arrive on campus, park and hike all the way to my class room, managing to be on-time, if not early.   While I may have a different set of circumstance, all my fellow class mates have been able to arrive on time as well, making her tardiness unacceptable.

I am unsure that I will make the minimum of a c, because of the way my professor has structured her class.  I am also unsure how to do anything that will change this predicament.  I am asking that some sort of action be taken.  I pay my tuition to learn in an environment that encourages it.  This class is letting me down.  This professor has let me down.  This cannot be how my college story goes.

Thank You

Maciena M. Justice

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While I’m sitting it on for now, to make sure it sounds okay and will make a difference.  I wanted to post it here, to get feedback from those who love me.

 

What do you all think?

a small moment of zen

the last day and a half as been rough.

 

so a moment of zen, compliments of my bcom professor.

and I quote, “Jude Law who is just edible”  and “Spielberg getting his rocks off with WWII and animals”

 

 

that is all.

 

Lucy

 

Here she is, our Lucy.

yellow rose.

Titles are my downfall.  They always have been.